pick yourself up by elle b published on 2021-08-29T21:16:03Z i started skipping on my meds they always make me feel so numb if i don’t take em im a mess hate that i’m living off of drugs don’t feel a thing or feel too much go all in or not at all manipulating what i love cause i’m afraid it’s gonna fall don’t you dare send that text you know he’s never gonna deserve whats next he can’t be an outlet for you murderous, anxious thoughts you can’t don’t you dare share too much cause you know it’s never gonna be enough if you start you’re never ever gonna stop pick yourself up make your bed love get the work done you do this by yourself it doesn’t matter if he’s real or not it’s not gonna fix the problem he’s still a million miles away and you can barely say his name it doesn’t if your friends are gonna answer the phone you’re better off alone you’re better in the cold it’s how you stay awake it’s how you numb the pain i’m fine until i’m not flowers bloom until they rot stars shine until they drop